Sitting on the fence while trying to make a decision gets uncomfortable.

I am humbled before God. I pray that whom ever may read this testimony of love might take care to the words I write. The Spirit moves in me and it is my prayer that you may avoid a snare or make leaps in your journey, based on my testimony.

My suffering is of my own making and I am forever grateful to be off of the fence with a decision. God does not give up on us. I can promise you this about my life. God always comes through.

It is hard for many to understand there is an enemy out there in the World. He is a thief and liar. He deceives many. He can keep one contained in a small box of discontentment or as I sitting on the fence in indecision. Both places are uncomfortable. The fence can be very painful the longer one sits the more it hurts and The more miserable one can become. You want to fly but stay on the fence weighing go north or south east or west. One can stay confined in a box and get pretty comfortable and miserable at the same time. It can become so familiar one may get nervous to go out and explore or spread their wings. Both are like not leaving your house. It gets a bit mundane. You can not fly those wings and see other beauty or be a part of it, if you will not move. It makes for a small world. There is light to spread in Gods World. He wants His children to fly and flourish.

I know to put the enemy behind me. I did and he left. I questioned what my motive was? I wanted to make sure I was in Gods will. He could not have made a clearer picture for me when I asked in prayer over a year ago. It has been very clear Christ has been closing the doors on my Hair Business. The flavor of life for me is changing. In my Spirit I believe I knew the answer and Gods love gave me ample opportunity to fly and I still sat in in decision. I got to where I did not know that I hurt. Then one day not to long ago the pain got miserable.

So I am here to tell you to live your dream, do not get stuck. The enemy likes to keep people feeling they are stuck. Tactics like lack, or a preconceived idea they are not good enough to move on or wondering if it is teh time. Some come to think they do not deserve any more then they have been given. God is love. He leads us one way to enlarge us so we can grow in service for Him. He gives us passions and gifts to use. There is no limit to what God can do for us. He wants us to live in His Blessing.

Around a year at the hubs I knew I was to write for the cause of Christ. I knew it was my commission and calling. First writing is a passion and hearts desire. Many years it sat on the shelf. In fact so long I forgot how much of a love I had in my Spirit to write. When the gift was presented to me again it was like a new beginning. I knew God was taking me from my Hairstyling career where I had a lot of training and refining done in a ministry behind my chair. It was for a season.

I received. My passion for hair was for two and a half decades. New doors have been opened. God was slowly moving out my clientèle. There were many reasons clients moved on but it was for His Glory and purpose. If I was to stay He would have kept pouring clients in the doors. I was so excited because I knew I was being led into a new flight plan. In hindsight I can see that if I had listened to the small still voice I would have avoided much heartache on the path. I had not surrendered to the Spirits leading. I kept taking back the flashlight. The Holy Spirit is a gentlemen, he does not twist arms. He will keep on stirring the heart but He does not push. Some like myself need more stirring then others.

I am so grateful I finally got off of the fence and made the decision that was meant to be. It has been a hard year of discovery. Discovery of how wondrous and wonderful and awesome God is. I know that in my heart of hearts. He is everything. He has shown me over and over again that He is my provision. He has Blessed me with His winks and surprises all along the way. It was clear the answer to my prayer was He wanted to use me in His Kingdom to write for His cause. It has been my hearts desire all along. He put it there.

He was opening a door for more timein which to write. Doing dribbles of Hair here and there is time consuming. One or two people can take a half of a day or longer. While I was sitting on the fence and in prayer God spoke to me, again. How can I give you more if you cannot let go of the little dribble in the other hand. I need both hands and feet. He knows where my heart is. He knows my desire to share His salvation and abundant living. He has told me in His word and in my Spirit. He reminded me of the last supper. He asked the disciples did any of you lack when I told you to go with nothing but faith in me for your provision? They all answered, 'No master we lacked nothing'

I am not here to share my testimony because I am some Madonna story. I am not. This is a story that if one heart can be spared heartache or led to where God would want you to be Praise and Glory be to Almighty God. I was led by the Spirit to write my testimony. I am not sure the reason. That is in the hands of the Creator but if one soul may be touched I am so grateful. God will lead here who is to be here.

I am so amazed at His unfailing love. Me a sinner and oh yea, 'woman of little faith.' God has done everything but hit me on the head with a gourd to get my attention. In all my praying for the right answer God has made it so obvious a second grader could get it but for me no it took some time of painstaking toil and confusion which made my Spirit seem restless and discontent. No one did it to me. I know as Gods Child I have authority to tell the enemy to get behind me and I did. The devil must love taking my notes sometimes. Well he can leap out of here in the Name above all others. Jesus Christ.

I created my misery because of desiring more evidence. I could kid myself and say my clients will miss me. They might if I am lucky (JK) but do I make a decision based on others so the few will stay happy when there is no guarantee they will stay with me for the full ride anyway? I am not the only hairdresser. Do I stay because the little dribble of money coming in is some guarantee. It is not, that could go away in a heartbeat as we know.

Forgive me Lord for not standing on your Promise. You want your children to live in the Blessing. John 10:10 If we can not let go or move from the box or fence how can you Bless us further? Many are lost and confused. They blame and run short fused and hear the world and trust in the world. Some might just darn like living as they do. The scenarios are endless but the true end is in sight. God Will prevail. One day EVERY knee will will bow and know He is Lord. Philippians 2: 10-11, It is a choice one makes.

Precious ones, if you do not know who Jesus Christ is please for your own life and that of your children ask Him into your heart. He is love, light, peace, gentleness, strength, might, valor, kindness, hope, joy, happiness, fellowship and gladness. He is mercy. He is salvation. He has a place for His Children in Heaven. You want your name written in the lambs book of life? Do you want to be a s Child of God. God made it so simple for us. Can you imagine God sending His own son Jesus to die on the cross a brutal, horrid death for us?

God loves us that much and no matter who tells you there are many paths to eternal life with Jesus it is written there is only one way. Through Jesus Christ .John 10:10. You heard the truth and if you believe there are many ways to enter Heaven you are hearing a lie. With that being said moving forward. He is the Savior of the World. It is Graceby Faith that we are saved through the blood of Jesus Christ. This paragraph is the most important in all of the words I write because if one just one soul that is lost hears by the Spirit in me sing it,' Praise Almighty God'.

Do you know the angels sing in heaven when one is saved. Luke 15:10-11. Just to think Children of God there was a rejoicing for us when we repented of sin and accepted Christ. The musical choir was turned up and a celebration in Heaven for another lost soul found.

I do not think my story is more important or that exemplary that I have this ego to write about myself. I am a humble servant for our Lord and Savior. It has been a long journey to the treasure chest that God has ordained for me. I have made a whole bunch of mistakes. In every path we take when a Child of God I can truly say as painful as it may have been it was beautiful and necessary to keep me walking in the light. So whether you have a broken leg or a broken heart I am here to tell you there are believers on these hubpages of love to bear your burdens. May you be encouraged by the host of Children in Gods family and read their works.

The enemy would just love to use one of His major tactics and keep Children of God in a rut. The devil does not need to be too concerned with the lost. He has many in the dark and as long as the light does not come near He goes for those that believe to pull them away form the truth.. The devil hates that Jesus loves us. I almost laugh and then I want to cry because of my, 'oh yea woman of little faith' I repent and I am made clean as snow. Oh precious Lord you were with me on the fence you are patient.

God could not have made it much clearer what my next step was to be but me in my thinking and or hearing seeds of doubt from others with best intentions or the worlds view I did not follow my heart to wards the next step. I stayed on the fence a year. Ouch that hurt. I have been up and down with misery. I have been torn and twisted. I could not make up my mind. I was so set on being in Gods will that I set myself up and was vulnerable prey to staying stuck. Sitting on the fence gets more uncomfortable the longer you are there. Eventually one must take a leap. Just leap in faith. If you make the wrong choice then God will pick you up by the shirttail.

Early this week I hit my knees. I surrendered everything to God. I knew what my hearts desire was to be. I have known Gods will. I cried and wept and laughed for an hour. I asked forgiveness for my hard head. I know God is God. He is Lord. He is the King of Kings. He has grand plans for us. I have made a decision. In April of 2011, I will not be working at a Hair Salon any longer. I am not there much but for the sake of the owner that loves my booth rent and needs my booth rent I will give her time. I am telling my clients as I see them. I might write a nice letter to them as well. I will be led.

I am onward to writing full time for the cause of Christ. I am elated. I know My Lord will open the doors. He is my provision. I am His hands and feet for His Glory and namesake. Time waits on no one. It is wise to savor every moment and make use of it. My income that comes in small waves will not be there. I am in Gods economy to which there is no end, He pays lmassive dividends. I trust Him. I know He will care for me and my hearts desires. He came so that we could have life and have life more abundant. Thank You sweet, sweet Jesus!!

I do not plan on leaving the hubpages of love by any means. I have a family here that has stood by me, supported and loved me. I have a host of friends and new brothers and sisters that I adore. I intend to continue to love how I know to love. Love never fails. If in your heart you would toss a prayer for me I would be so grateful. I know you will say a prayer for me and I you as well. We have our work cut out for us. This is a lost and dying world. The Lord is returning. Praise God. You all will be the first to know what doors will open. Watch me get to a 100 hubs of love? tee he. Hugs Galore.

I love you, In Christ.

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